Read me Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know what to say and think so much has been on my mind. It has been so hard for me every day being broke and trying to live for nothing. I thought I knew what I was getting my self in but I ddn't, its funny people all ways say go to school but how do you stay in school with out any money to afford tution man living off of 5 dollars each and everyday since I have been at school its funny how some students get checks and don't attend class,party,drink,and have a good time but me nothing without any help from my parents I will make it because thats what a man suppose to do. Thinking of many ways to get this money so I won't be sitting at home next semester because all of these stories people told sounded good but were lies. All I ever wanted to do was make my entire family proud and help my father out of debt sometimes while my cousin sleeps I cry thinking of ways I can eat because my pride is to big to ask family,friends,teachers for help I keep it to myself but it hurts. I see guys that have scholarships and they just don't care and talk big. but if I could just have a little of their sunshine and if my life was theirs they bulkle under all the pressure but I beleive God is doing this to me for a reason and I'm just gonna keep my faith in him. But if this is for my family,and friends I would go threw it everyday of my life.