Friday, December 5, 2008

I'M CuMmIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As I come in and suprise her while she's sleep her body so soft and smells so sweet from the bath and body lotions and soap from the shower turns me own and takes me own and everlasting ride in my emotions. while she sleeps and I pull the covers back on her smove and sexy black skin as I kiss her body from her head to her toe she starts to shake in her sleep and mone as if she is trying to tell me to keep going as my mind is rushing with many thoughts but while kissing her rich and buttery black skin my lips melt everytime I place a kiss own any part of her body as she awakes she pulls me up giving me love as she kisses my big juicey lips my body is already thursty for her so as our bodies touch its sort of like when the sun first meets the moon ''amazing''as I tell her to tell me what do she wants she is stunned because the love has got her tongue but this is just the beginning it seems like she can't catch her breath she is moaning loud and is telling me that she is mine and i am hers my head is about to explode because i'm looking at her body while feeling her soft and beautiful skin while she has her amazing sents in the air while me and her are thinking of how much we love each one another the love can't get no harder than that and while she's at her peak I start to kiss her inside by licking her up and down finally she screams out I'M CUMMIN then her roommate starts to beat on the door but we can't even notice because I want her to have something she never had before so as we drown out the knocking with her loud screams and my low manly mone while she starts to tare lines in my flesh on my back I love u is what we say at the same time and as the night turns to morning we hated that it had to end because we were apart of another relationship..........................................................

let me talk.................

As I find the one that I really love, It hurts because who can I love when my heart has been broken so many times I want to have a real relationship where my girl can spend time with me. Then when I'm going threw stuff she can help me relax by talking are even just listening to what i'm going threw just to help ease my mind. Its so hard to have one though becasue of the the say and she say, its hard to find a girl to trust you and want to be with you for who you are not because your swag, and the car you drive but i'm just goanna say because of the material things. I try to give my hert to every female like my mom taught me but it always fall at the end with my heart being broken after along relationship that I can't explain and don't want to remember.

Is this the end of a happy Family

It seems like the family that I always wanted is falling apart, the tuition is taring us apart and most of the family is living because they are not able to pay there fees so they are forced to leave the first to leave my lil cousin T-seed you can call him my brother sleeps all day and the ladies love him its amazing you learn something from everybody the thing that I learn from him is to hold your toungue and learn to be able to please yourself and always have fun. Next on the least to leave is my homeboy T he's from Wisconsin but you mightest well call him my brother from another mother he is nothing like any other friend i ever had he taught me to never let a female run over me and always mean what you say. Then last but not least my nigga Q the biggest but he is the baby of the floor he taught me to holla but always get the number and her friendship as well and most of all do you this is not the whole family but it feels like it.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Its Hard Out Here!!!!!!!!!!

Wat to do after my bill is not payed and i'm about to be kicked out of school. I tryed to get loans but there isn't anyone in my entire family with good credit. Trying to move and do things that know one in your family ever did is very expensive but I will not be denide you worked hard for good grades and high ACT scores and you get them but its still hard to be comfortable at school. They say school is something that all of us need to do but how can we with all of these finacial problems that we are approached with that continue to hold us back. So where do I go from here if I go home I will end up trapped trying not to go to jail or worst working a dead end job that doesn't make any money. Anything except going home is good for me I don't want to be sucked in to a small town and talk to younger kids that know me and say I could have and if I would have I want to be a person to say I did.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Dreamn

As I wake up there is no worry everything is taken care of your schoolen is payed for you have a car without a car note both of your parents don't need nothing you have money to help your family get what ever they need and want as well as yourself and your family and you are doing something that you love to do then your grades are great when you check them because you have passed in every homeworkk assignment that was ever issued and passed all test and quiz which puts you at the top of your class you go any place you want because you have money all of your family is healthy so know one is on the verge of dieing are being sick which is another good thing then your girl friend don't argue all the time so you are dreamn.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Read me Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know what to say and think so much has been on my mind. It has been so hard for me every day being broke and trying to live for nothing. I thought I knew what I was getting my self in but I ddn't, its funny people all ways say go to school but how do you stay in school with out any money to afford tution man living off of 5 dollars each and everyday since I have been at school its funny how some students get checks and don't attend class,party,drink,and have a good time but me nothing without any help from my parents I will make it because thats what a man suppose to do. Thinking of many ways to get this money so I won't be sitting at home next semester because all of these stories people told sounded good but were lies. All I ever wanted to do was make my entire family proud and help my father out of debt sometimes while my cousin sleeps I cry thinking of ways I can eat because my pride is to big to ask family,friends,teachers for help I keep it to myself but it hurts. I see guys that have scholarships and they just don't care and talk big. but if I could just have a little of their sunshine and if my life was theirs they bulkle under all the pressure but I beleive God is doing this to me for a reason and I'm just gonna keep my faith in him. But if this is for my family,and friends I would go threw it everyday of my life.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Real Talk

Time is most important thing in the world and its also the worst thing in the world because it never stops when we take a nap and take time to do foolish stuff like play games we are wasting time that we can be using doing something constructive. Time can also eat you alive in the past as well as the future because you think of things that you could have did and even wish you could turn back the hands of time to use your time wise and better the hold point is don't get beat by time because we don't know when we may leave so we as people should start leaving instead of being mad at one another and be just be happy that we see a new day every day we live.